1. I am grateful that I am a part of a 40 day meditation group. I love feeling the support from others and learning from them and from the teacher. 40 days is a celestial number for transformation and for communion with God. (Christ fasted for 40 days in the wilderness before He began His ministry. The Hebrew spies were gone from the twelve tribes for 40 days. etc.) So we were challenged to do 40 consecutive days of meditation to see where God would lead us. Today is day 36, (I'm geeking out a little bit that tomorrow is day 37) and I am really loving the closeness that I feel with Heaven.
2. I'm learning tons about meditation and about breathing. I am grateful for this knowledge. Meditation has two parts--the thinking part, or stillness, and the controlled breathing part. I am grateful for learning more about controlled breathing--because controlling our breathing helps us become more holy. We have in us the Breath of Life, Moses 3:7, and becoming aware of our breathing helps us to be aware of the holiness that we have in us. So I am grateful for the new insights and knowledge I am getting.
3. We are doing Kirtan Kirya, which is an ancient Indian form of meditation. I really like it. There is a ton of symbolism that points to Christ, but there are two parts that just make it an ideal fit for me. As part of Kirtan Kirya, we chant Mantras, and we preform Mudras. Mantras are sayings that we recite again and again, to help move the thoughts into our subconscious -and as they all point to Christ, then when I am chanting I am placing Christ in my mind and removing all other distractions. The Mudras are finger actions that we repeat with each word, and I love them. I am really like a teenager still, where I can't sit still. I'm always either fingering a bookmark as I read, twiddling my thumbs as I listen, or tapping a foot, or doing some small movement--especially when I'm focused and engaged. The Mudras and Mantras are just enough to help me focus and be still. I don't think I could be still and feel God's presence without them.
4. I am grateful for The Bug Hero for helping me take care of the boys so I can meditate every morning. It makes the biggest difference in my day to take time to be still, and listen to God before I start everything up. I am feeling more patience, and more love because of the time I have to allocate to God in the morning. I'm only doing it for 19 minutes and it is powerful.
5. Today I had an incredible experience while I was meditating, and that's why today is all about meditation. I tried meditating in the morning, but it didn't work because The Bug Hero wasn't there to watch the kids. So I wasn't really worried about it and knew that I would do the meditation while The Peaceful Hero was taking his nap.
The past few weeks have been hard, because The Bug Hero has been working on his PhD Proposal, and he's been gone a lot, and then stressed out when he's home. I have been picking up a lot, and I've been happy to do so. But today as I went up to meditate I was feeling like it was hard. I had a lot to do for the rest of the day, and I wasn't sure how I was going to get it all done.
I started meditating and as soon as I was in my meditative state, and I felt an overwhelming sense of Love for The Friendly Hero and for The Peaceful Hero. I felt how much I loved them, and how proud I was of them growing, and then I could recognize that I was also feeling the Love the Jesus Christ and Heavenly Father have for them. As I felt that love I could feel it changing direction and moving towards the Bug Hero. I am proud of him and I am very blessed by him. I am willing to make a lot of sacrifices for his education and even when it gets hard, he is a very good man and I felt my love intensify as I felt Heaven's love for him. Then I felt the love that is felt for me. And I felt completely cherished and divine. I could feel that I was awakening the Goddess within me. And as I felt this I realized that even if The Bug Hero is very busy and we are helping him, that Heaven is helping me and taking care of me. And I felt humbled. That I am that important to the Divine. And it was powerful. I felt so much peace and I realized that patience is founded upon love, that I can be patient with all the shortcomings within myself and within the other family members because I love them.
6. I am grateful for how close I am feeling to Heaven and how meditating is helping me bring myself to a place where Heavenly Father can talk to me. My favorite metaphor for meditation is that you bring yourself to Heaven's Door and knock and are willing to take whatever is offered, whenever it is offered. And you are offered more than you can imagine.
If you are interested in learning more about meditation, I would be happy to answer any questions. The 40 day meditation webinar is starting up again on November 13th, and it's amazing how much closer to God you can feel.
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