Today has been really good, Baby Hero wise. He's on his third nap of the day right now, and that's a good sign. We're getting really good about not having the Baby Hero fuss, but that doesn't necessarily correlate to sleep. He's just awake and quiet.Last Night wasn't so hot, because he was willing to sleep, but only if Mom or Dad held him. So we took three hour shifts in the rocking chair to help him sleep. Unfortunately, we didn't get as much sleep as we needed.
Today marks the one week I have left on maternity leave. Between the lack of sleep and realizing that I'm going to be leaving my angel, this morning was rough emotionally speaking. We were fine later on, after both of us slept.
I got a call from the Math Department Chair at our school, asking when I was coming back, and then informing me that I get a priceless student as soon as I get back. I was the only math teacher that the parent of the priceless student approved of. (It sucks having a great reputation at the school, because then I get problem children to take care of and baby sit.)
I also found out that my long term sub hasn't done the best job, because everyone wanted me and apparently I'm really hard to replace. So I get to come back to another headache. The administration hasn't been to pleased with her abilities to disapline classes and get grades updated.
So, basically, I'm back to work one week early and it's stressing me out. I really wish that I had an office job that even though I was stellar, I was replaceable. Work wouldn't haunt me the way that this job does. (I like teaching, but honestly. Leave ME ALONE! I'm on maternity leave. I'm trying to adjust and keep my kid happy.)
As I reflect on the pi day experience, when I showed Baby Hero off to the principal, she asked me if I really wanted to quit for next year, or if there was any way she could convince me to work for her again. Flattering yes, but also it should have clued me in on how bad things were in my absence. I told her that I really was moving to Indiana with my husband and baby and that she would have to find someone to replace me. I just wish that I could be like another teacher at our school who quit this year when she had her baby. She doesn't have to go back next week. I'm really jealous. I don't want to go back.
I'll probably feel better about this whole thing once I get some sleep and if it leaves me alone for this week. (Seeing how it's the end of the quarter, it probably won't leave me alone...which will make me not too thrilled to go back to work.)
3 comments:
Beth,
I really hope things look brighter after catching some sleep. It is so hard to be a new mom, and I don't know how I would have been able to even think about students or my curriculum if I'd been teaching. You are awesome, I totally know why the principle, parents and especially your students want you back. You are really a great and exciting teacher. It would have been awesome if I'd had a math teacher like you. They are going to have a tough time replacing you, actually, there's no way they'll be able to find someone to do what your doing.
I get behind in sleep too and I always say something like "Oh, I'll catch up later." or "Dan can watch the baby while I sleep." But in reality, I never really catch up. So good luck. I'll come up and watch super hero baby if you'd like. Then you could take a nap or take a hot shower. Or, what might be even better is if we plan something down here, then you wouldn't be able to spend that precious time thinking about the dishes, or what's for dinner, or your students, or . . . (really the list never ends). :)
Anyway, keep it up. You're doing great. It really does get easier for the three of you. I think your amazing.
i wish you didn't have to go back either, i cant imagine leaving dex behind. You are strong. It is great that your husband will get to watch him though and not some daycare. I'm sorry just the same. Let me know if i can help, and i'll see you tomorrow!
Is it too late to quit?
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